april 4th, 2009.

he looked me right in the eyes, upset - waiting for me to erase the previous moment. i wanted to give him something, anything. but there was nothing left to give. i wanted so badly to lie to him, to tell him that i trusted him, tell him that i loved him, tell him that our love could survive anything, that it would last forever. i wanted to tell him these things so badly. but instead, i sat there. i watched the snow collect on the ground outside. i wished he'd just make a joke and forget all about it.